the mirrored window: July 2005

farewell, my loves! i'm going across the pond. jolly good. (i hope they really say that)

Beth's chicken. it's a goodbye chicken. LEAVE ME COMMENTS WHILE I'M GONE! :) I Love You!

i didn't know that this game we were playing even had a set of rules.

well children it seems i haven't really written about the past 2 weeks like at all. this is bound to drag on... i apologize in advance. :)

so on Monday i was supposed to go to dance, but instead i hung around the house... maybe cleaned, got the house ready for Forrest. (Beth just called Ben Folds, Bens Fold... she's so retarded) but anyway oh yea- we had to go to Cincinnati to check out the proofs for the wedding invitations. dad had driven the bike to the Harley dealership and we picked him up, then we went to Louisville to meet Forrest at the airport. after we left the airport we spent like 15 mins trying to find the poor kid some food. my dad really made it much more complicated then it needed to be, but anyway. that day was very uneventful.

Tuesday... time for my permit test! joy to the world! haha i passed that (in Cyn city) and Deanie took me to Mt. Olivet to get the actual card thing. that day pretty much went down from there... i sat at home and watched the O.C. (not a problem). but then dad and mom got home and dad like flipped out cause dean had left and forrest had went with him, but i stayed home, and dad was like omg! and called dean and like bitched him out. so at that point i felt like a total bitch and dean was pretty much mad at me cause he thought i told dad to call him (which i definitely did not do). but there was some big deal and i don't know i was just in a really bad mood. i went outside for some fresh air to try to calm me down and when dean got home he actually game outside and asked me if i was mad at him and i said no, and we talked a little bit and that made me happy. it really surprised me. then i tried catching lightning bugs... but they were being gay and i didn't catch one. so i just gave up and went to bed.

on Wednesday i was getting kind of mad at Hank cause he hadn't called me a like a bunch of days so i wasn't in a super mood. and i couldn't call Beth cause she was at camp. i thought i was going to die. oh yea, and then Forrest "put the bike down." haha sorry, that's not funny, but the whole "put the bike down" thing is to me. i don't know. anyways momma played nurse and used like all the bandaids in the house... (we weren't really eqquipped for diaster. haha) but then Ashwey called and she needed a ride to dance. so I got to drive to her house and then we went to dance... and afterwards we all (me, Ashley, Forrest, and the 'rents) ate at Perico's. it was fun! it definitely cheered me up.

Thursday was a very, very boring day. in one final chance of any kind of excitement i asked dad if we could just take a drive after dinner. we used to do that all the time when i was young and Ruben lived down the road. ahh i miss those days. anyways, me, dad and Forrest went down to Robinson Dam. (i drove) we got there like right when it was getting dark. we walked out on the dam... and Dad was a little adventureous (i reckon) and walked over the water part... i was like freaking out cause i thought he was going to slip and fall off the dam into the water. well, he didn't... but his sandal did. while he went on a hunt for his shoe, me and Forrest posted on the dam. there was the cutest cat there, and it would kind of come to us, but then it would stop like a foot away. (i still blame it on Forrest's lack of hygiene.) dad finally came back (he didn't find his shoe) so we drove down under the bridge to look for the shoe a little bit but there were so many bugs i thought they were going to like fill my lungs. it was crazy. lol anyway, dad had no luck... so he decided to just throw the other shoe off the bridge on the way home. why only have one, eh? (i have one flip flop in my closet, from when i broke my foot... in that case i really only needed one. haha)

Friday Leslie and James came for a little bit before the rehersal dinner for James' brother's wedding. they needed to do some ironing or something? me and Forrest decided to go to the go carts in Maysville at the water park. dad took us over there. it was okay... i had to wear dad's shoes. haha that was gay. i saw Brianna Curtis and Kory Haydon (friends for Mason Co.) so that was awesome! after that we went to Blue Licks to play some mini golf. (heck yes, my favorite! lol) me and Forrest played once, then i won a free game, so dad played with us the 2nd time. dad is such a serious mini golf player... it's actually kind of funny to watch. of course he beat us by a lot. i got to drive home from there! : ) Hank actually called that night! i was surprised.

Saturday i was planning on having like a bunch of ppl over for a bonfire... but that bunch of ppl turned out to just be Evan. i didn't really care, tho! me, him and Forrest had a freaking blast..... okay maybe not exactly, but we had fun! he brought mine and beth's bday presents! sweedish fish and a Jones soda! : ) made me happy. we just kind of chilled... then we actually lit the bonfire, and brought the music and outside and stuff. the fire was sooo hot we couldn't get any closer than like my little porch. it was crazy. it died down though and we kept moving in closer and closer. haha i think Evan left at like 12 or something? right as Dean and Ryan and some mexcian looking person i had never seen before pulled in to get some wood for a bonfire they were having. i pretty much went to sleep after that i think.

Sunday morning i had to get up all early because it was the Sternwheel Regatta thing in Augusta! and of course the annual AA cruiser car show was taking place. i am the offical split the pot girl... so duty called. Beth and her daddy came at like noonish i think? we had to keep making split the pot rounds... but then me, her and Forrest walked to some lil store to get him some cameras so he could take pics of the cars. beth got a pint of ice cream, lol. she's retarded. it was soooo hotttttt outside. we went down to the river and took off our shoes and sat there with our feet in. it was nice. i think we got up to like $275 in split the pot... or something like that. not near as good as past years, but i wasn't very productive. haha when we got home Leslie and James and his sister Becky were there. they were picking up their car and Leslie was going over some wedding stuff with mom. momma made pasta salad! : ) Leslie and James ended up talking to mom and dad about "important" stuff for like an hour so Becky hung out with me and Forrest. Forrest drew a picture of a tree. (haha Tree... sorry that was mean, i couldn't help it!) and we made up a pasta game of sorts. then Les and James and Becky finally left at like 8 something. me and Forrest decided to ride bicycles. lol well i guess i kind of decided but i don't think it bothered him too much. we had to get the bikes out of the rafters of the garage, that was a fun experience! haha then he wanted to go "relive" his motorcycle wreck. haha he kept freakin out cause ppl were shooting off fireworks and he was like what is that?! it was great. then we rode past this house and these 2 little boys were like what are you doing? we have fireworks! it was funny, they were so cute! after that we just kind of chilled in the garage for a little bit... then we tried catching lightning bugs, but once again they eluded me! damn things. so i went to sleep.

Monday night was the last time i was going to be at dance for a hella long time. during the day i didn't do much... i actually can't remember much of Monday, it's blurring together with Tuesday. while i was in dance Forrest got the 2 models that he would be spending like every waking moment for them on with. haha we ate at Perico's that night. oh yea- on the way home from there I called Autumn and Forrest talked to her and he was pretending to be a mexican, it was hilarious! then we told her his name was Forrest Tree, and she believed us... so gullible! haha

I believe Tuesday was the morning that Forrest cooked breakfast... i didn't eat it. (i wasn't hungry) it looked really good, though! as far as i can remember, Tuesday was boring.

Wednesday Elora and Beth were coming over, so i think i made an attempt at cleaning the 'ole room. I had a dentist's appt that morning, then i had to sit at the highschool while mom was in sitebased training. luckily, Beth was at NeNe's, so we decided to walk and meet eachother half way at Kaleb's. i was supposed to go to dance that night, but I went to youth with Beth instead. that was pretty fun! after that we picked Elora up and came home. we were bored so we dressed up as gangsters... pretty much to try and get a rise out of Forrest, although that didn't work too well. haha we watched the O.C. and ate ravioli for a while. dean came home and he was pretty messed up, it was really really funny, though. then we decided to go for a walk, but Beth didn't come. it was soo dark outside, though, we got to about the barn and we came back! haha but we were so bored we stayed up until like 5 that morning!

thursday morning i had a doctor's appt so we had to get up at like 9 to leave my house- freakin hell! but yea. we dropped beth and elora off on the way into town. after my doctor's appt. we went to Hank's house to pick him up. then me, him, my mom and Dean went to Lex to go shopping for Dean... that turned out to be a very long and drawn out experience. but we finally made it to the mall. after about 5 minutes of walking around my feet felt like they were going to fall off... it sucked!!! but i saw Leah Young! that was awesome. and I got that "I'm rad." shirt from PacSun- heck yea! :) haha when we got home me and hank and my mom went up town (mt. olivet) to get some movies! (i got to drive!) after that we just chilled and watched tv... the OC! and then we watched Coach Carter. he left at about 12 i think. it started storming like realllly bad right after he left. i was worried! but i was so tired i just went to sleep.

Friday was Forrest's last day here, so we decided to try and make it exciting! haha soo... we went to the Cinci zoo! i got to drive into Maysville! even on the double A! yeehaw! haha the zoo was actually pretty fun! i always like seeing the animals. after that we went to Ault Park and just hung out for a while. we had gotten some Ale8s earlier so me and Forrest took so me and went to swing. it was really hard to swing cause i was in a skirt (i don't recommend that! haha) but i was determined! then we lost my 'rents and had to call them on a payphone! haha when we found them we went down to Zip's Cafe and had dinner. (yumm) I love Zip's! That night me and Forrest stayed up until like 6, just hanging out... that was nice. i miss him!

Saturday we got up kinda early so we could get Forrest to the airport in Louisville on time. on the way we ran into Autumn at McDonalds... i think i already wrote about that weird dream she told me about, though. haha after we said goodbye to Forrest at the airport we went down to the Continental luggage thing to see about weight limits and stuff for Ireland. then Mom needed to go to the mall for something... i really don't remember what we were intially after... haha she ended up getting a bunch of new clothes, and a new pair of shoes, and we both got some stuff from V.S., and i got some jewelry and this really neato picture frame from the Icing... oh and i got an electric adapter plug thing for Ireland since they have a different current or whatever. and 2 new memory cards for my camera! yea we kinda went all out... haha that night must of been like the lonliest of my entire life (thus far).

Sunday morning mom and dad left early to go get the bike in Cinci or something. i was not very active... i should have gotten a lot done, but i really just kind of... sat. and when it rained i went outside and stood in it for a while. my day pretty must consisted of failed attempts to clear my head and just find some peace. that night Sarah Wallingford's 'rents- Liz and Dave- came over for dinner. it was so nice to see them!

Monday (yesterday) we got up to drive around and take pictures for Dad to show his students in Ireland. we also went to BlueLick's to look at stuff for the wedding. (i got to drive the whole time!) that took pretty much all day! so when i got home i had to hurry up and get ready for Kayla's surprise party! (i'll put some pics on here in a bit) that was so much fun! after that i went and stayed the night at Beffy's! we tried to called like 2208475208457 ppl but seriously no one answered their phone... kids these days.

today i came home and um, did nothing. how exciting, eh? i should have started packing. i'm such a bad packer. haha that sounds funny... maybe i'm just in a weird enough mood to be amused by anything. that happens a lot. (thank god, actually)

this pie is soooooooo good. mmmmm!

the storms of our childhood
leave branches on the ground
just enough for us to stumble through our memories
but not fall all the way down

so i haven't written in this thing in a longgg time. it's all booming outside and i thought it was fireworks at first... but i think it's thunder. i'm so confused! lol no it's fireworks. maybe it's both. maybe it's a plane. maybe i need to quit talking about it. haha

holy baby jesus i am leaving for Ireland in like 4 days! i was proud of myself today, because i made a checklist of stuff to take so i won't forget anything. i haven't started packing. i'll probably leave it to like 2 am the night before i leave, though... i have a tendency to do that. i have such awful packing skills, you don't even know. and then i get that sinking feeling cause i think i forget stuff... but my list should help. right now it has so not sunk in that i'm going to Ireland... this time next week i'll be in Ireland... talking to Irish people. wow...

(some random conversation for you)
AngelBeth2309: haha i am planning on giving myself a bladder infection, thank you
laurelynn5678: those are always good

Forrest left yesterday. :( the house is like so empty now, seriously. i guess i never really wrote about him in here, did i? well, fyi- he's freakin awesome. haha he really likes hip-hop music, so at first i was like oh no... but it didn't turn out to be such a bad thing. we had fun... as much as we could in my house - it's so freakin boring! lol but yea, it rocked that he came to stay with us. i told you i would keep you updated, so there you go.

something really fun is going on tomorrow, but i can't tell you about it now. it's a secret. you'll know soon enough.

i saw Autumn on Saturday morning in G-town at McDonalds on the way to the airport and she was like, i had this dream last night, and i was at your house. and i broke a salt shaker. and you were like- i can't believe you, that's my dad's favorite salt shaker! and my mom was like- yea he takes it everywhere, on trips and everything. and she felt really bad. she's such a dork! haha i love her. her bday is on Tuesday! she's finally 16, haha wish her happy bday!

i noticed something really cool today. it was an optical illusion thing (i guess) in my house. it was like on the ceiling right inside the door to the back deck... it was raining outside, but it was sunny- and it looked like raindrops were falling on the ceiling... like somehow it was reflected in these 2 sunny squares. it was weird. i have it on my camera, on video... freaking neato.

well i am all out of things to say really. plus i need to attend to some wedding stuff. so check out the pics and have fun! :)

happiness is a state of mind
not an emotion
that's why it's so easy for me
to revert to a state of happiness
and not feel a thing