me n Deanie. in Wisconsin (obviously a longgg time ago) i used this for his 20th bday card and i figured i'd put it on here! geez we were cool! 

one of my favorite bands in the whole world! Brand New! :) 

Evan left his glasses at Beffy's house! haha (mine are cooler) 

Beth lovess her brushhh! haha 

i loveee my hairrr. haha 

Beth n Jim- awww! :) lol 

beth says we look like we're planning world domination. (heh heh heh...) 

Evan likes my glasses. he would not take them off! haha 

my sunday was spent cleaning- this. yay? haha 

woah woah

"and i think i know- woah woah! why you, never get too close. s'cause you're too scared to. when i'm with you, there's no point in breathing."
how many times was that said this weekend? haha a million 500 and three. :) this weekend was funn. I went to Beffy's on Saturday. actually (NOT ASHLEY! haha) i went to NeNe's... sat in some dog pee (i think...) and tried to dry it off for like an hour before beth got there to pick me up, haha. NeNe was at mass so it was just me n Missy (my favorite dog in the world- cha!) so then we went to Food Lion and had a rowdy time... read a book with all those Happy Bunny quotes in them, it was freakin hilarious. a bit corrupting, though. haha so we finally made it to the Collin's residence! Jim came over and then Evan came over! :) it was fun. 'Don't be afraid to poke someone's eye out- it might just save your life!' hahaha that was so great. they stayed til like 1! cause Shanno fell asleep! haha after the guys left me n Beth wached Without a Paddle. about 30 minutes into it I asked beth if she was still alive- and she didn't say anything. so she was out for the count. then Abby started scratchin and bangin on the door and it bout scared the pee outta me! haha it was a good movie. not a Great movie- but mildly amusing.
on Sunday i got up and made bingo cards for my kindergarten's! then Evan came over at like 3? i don't remember. he left his sunglasses at Beth's- how will he live? haha he was obsessed with mine- dork! haha we went to the playground- it was fun. there were some very-Berry ppl there! haha he left at like 5. then Jim came over at like 5:15 and i ate some Ravioli.... then i left! lol i must of burned like 20 cds this weekend. OK, maybe not 20... but like 4! haha it seemed like a lot.
so these are the pics from the weekend. well not the first ones, obviously! haha enjoy. :)

i'm a hostage

ugh! school sucks. and mom kept me here for like 2 hours last nite! she picked me up from dance and we took Ashley home, then she said she had to get a lil bit of stuff to put together and she had to pack the art for the Morehead competition. so i was like okay (thinkin it would be like 15 minutes, tops). but nooooo. and i understand that the woman is busy and stressed but i am a teenager and i need SLEEP. okay that's really selfish. atleast i still got to talk to beth n evan! Elora has not been at school the past couple of days! i tried to call her house thursday at like 5, but nobody answered? but i think she's sick, poor thing! i hope she feels better soon! I think i actually get to go to the game for a lil bit 2nite. but not on purpose! haha our truck won't start! poor BBTT (better Buck the truck- i named it!) i realllyy hope dad doesn't sell it, tho cause i am attached to the thing! well i'm gonna go to the gameee! go Harrison! haha i'm a dork. it's senior nite, 2nite- i just remembered that! woah woah. okay bye kids!

adventures at play practice!

so today's play practice was a damn good time! we worked on stuff for about 2 hours- changed our dance up a bit! fun fun haha then me, Jake, and Ashley went to eat at DQ cause i was HONGRY and it was yummy! then we came back to school and we didn't have to do anything cause Doug was workin with main characters... so we were just playin round. then i realllyyy wanted to walk up in the ceiling of the auditorium, cause it seemed like a brilliant idea! so we went to see if the gate thingie that goes to it's ladder up on the loft was locked... and it wasn't! so we went up there and there's all these wood walkways around the pyramid things in the ceiling but me n Ashley didn't go too far! it's so cool up there, tho cause you can see everybody but they don't look up to see you. if they did look up, you'd think for sure they'd see ya... but they don't! when we came down from there we were just chillin on the loft and Jake, bein his usual self, was flippin over the railing and catching himself. me n ashley were just talkin when all of a sudden we saw Jake's hands slip and he fell off the loft! omg we were soooo freaked out! we were like are you okay? and he was like NO! he hit his chin on the floor of the loft on his way down, then that like spun him around and he landed face-first on a chair below him. needless to say he was limping around for a bit! then we were all messin around in the foyer, tryin to jump and touch the ceiling... and i was like well i could, if i had some help! and so Ben and Sean did that cheerleading thing where i could stand in their hands. and i accidentally kneed Sean in the chin and it like busted his lip! omg i felt so bad! but all in all it was very exciting, eh? then i went to Autumn's and we went to the movies and saw Hitch (really good movie!). fun times! okay that was it. have a good day :)

picture time!

these are random pictures from the last month or so of my life. and since i don't write about what i do everday anymore, you can make up the stories. enjoy!

what possessed beth to take this picture i do not know. but it was a DON'T MOVE moment 

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matching shirts, what what 

the fun just never stops, huh? 

Beth's a blind bunny! at Elora's! haha 

Elora's a bunny? not her, too! damn rabbits.

Abby Gregg is green! 

Ashley's socks make the picture... haha 

"it's time for us to play" haha me n Ashley goofin off in Nashville! 

harley and me!  

Harley's eye- really cute picture... tho strange 

who took this picture? when you figure it out, tell them to stop wasting my memory card, biatch! haha playin! it's Elora, Kasey, Whit, and Velinda (in the pic that is) 

Weston's running- oh no he's gonna hit the desk thing! stop him! haha 

the top of the gun reads- IF YOU DRIVE DRUNK AND KILL SOMEONE, IT'S NOT AN ACCIDENT. IT'S MURDER. 

the pie i made momma for her bday! 

a theory

I was talkin with my dad the other day and in conversation he said "There is an initial awkardness to everything." that's my new theory. Though we were talkin about interacting with hispanic ppl it applies to MaNy things. such as:

-your first step
-your first word
-your first day of school
-your first "sleepover"
-your first boyfriend/girlfriend
-your first kiss
-your first time driving
-your first time living on your own
-your first job

I'm sure you can think of a million other things to add to the list, but unfortunately I don't have time for that. but ya get my gist, eh? so when we think things are bad or screwed up because they're changing or it's a new idea, think about how change is a normal process of life... and when change occurs, there's an initial awkwardness to all new things. no need to point fingers at anyone else, or yourself. no need for drastic meausures. just give yourself time to adjust, and you will. you may be thinking why the hell is she writing about this? well... in the past month or two i've heard of 2 grown men commiting suicide. i'm not goin to get into details... but i have realized that we as humans sometimes have the thought that the way it is now is how it's always goin to be, be it good or bad. but everything changes in time. and for me, personally, lately has been all about change. i'm sure many of you my age feel the same. we're not "little kids" anymore... and tho that may delight some of you it kind of bothers me. i'm just gettin used to it and i need time to accept it. i'm preaching to myself. but maybe you understand, too.

cathartic experiences

the stuff that makes me, is buried deep
a dark cavern resting in my mind
the pages of the book are crinkled and torn
discarded and truthful
you will never know exactly who i am
though you may try

you can't reach me, with a touch
you won't even brush the surface
my skin is my alibi
you must dig miles inside
trapped and furious
but you will never know exactly who i am
though you may try

years will go by
no answers to confusing questions
my thoughts will bind me
as i slip into the night
terrified and alone
and you will never know exactly who i am
thought you may try

i'm gonna kick off my shoes and run in bare feet

well another Valentine's Day has gone by and it was good. I didn't get anything but I didn't expect it so it was okay! and like i said to Shelby at dance when she was gettin on my nerves- there's no point in being bitter! ha gosh I wanted to hit her in the face yesterday- but i'd get kicked out of dance. I've never actually felt like that before but she kept gettin on my nerves oadsfhladsjflakfdj. but oh well. I GOT MY CHUCKS! ahhh they're like a size too big but I don't want to send them back! ppl are eatin blue candy canes- yucky! where are the cinnamon ones?! lol i miss 2nd block last semester. good times. i have that feeling in the pit of my stomach that used to keep me from sleepin when i was lil. i don't know what it's about. god i hate it. WHY?! i think something bad is goin to happen. or it's me bein paranoid for some reason. but i don't know. it's like Everything is changin this semester and i'm worried... about stuff. but this is how i drive ppl away. i'm weird. and i'm gonna go before i say something i don't want you to read.

TGIFooba

Hellllooooo baaaaaby. haha do you know that song? It's a wonderful day in the neighboorhood........ uh huh uh huh uh huh! Kathryn says my burst of ADD is comin in 5 minutes? alrighttyyyy then. swim with the fishies in the deep blue sea... bah bah-bah bah bah! do do do do do do do okay i'm in a very noise mood apparently. ay? this probably makes 0 sense. ZERO. got it? i am goin to beffy's this nite i do believe, we're goin to the movies 2nite and elora, too! I WANT MY CHUCKS! how much wood could a wood chuck chuck if a wood chuck could chuck wood? huh? that's a lot harder to type than say, man. i'm makin 17 DOZEN cookies! :) how fun is that? i'll prolly get sick of it but i don't think so cause i'm doing nice deeds! maybe you'll get a cookie! you just never know, eh? kathryn's icons look like a paper clip! well i never! haha i'm gonna start sayin that it's so fun. is Shaq movie actor kathryn? NO. we're playin Family Feud... are we ever not playin Family Feud? NO. swell. nifty. dandy. wowzer. that's the bee's knees! how long has it been since you've heard those chicos. that's what i thought. well that game rated a negative 410. not really but it should have. i got 2 FBLA member appreciation suckers! i'm appreciated! what are you? oh, that's right- you're a LOSER. hahahaha playin! I'll give you a cookie! :) I put on James' glasses yesterday when my hair was in those messy piggy bun things and it was freakin neato. i wish i had had my camera! there's like 4 of my friend's bags in my momma's room, she's a check service. just kidding she is much more than that. 04 DENVER. what is that supposed to mean? it's on this girl's purse. the colors are pretty tho. hahaha Mrs. Cruschiel's singin Mr. Roger's Neighboorhood for us! yay! Kasey Lawson gave me an Irish light-up bracelet! scooreeee. but it barely fits on my wrist! i might have mono! i had to get blood taken today... but i don't think i do. but they had to check since my throat has been hurting for over a month! i really suck at FF today. Mike came in here a sec ago to give Mrs. C something. i was thinkin about how it doesn't even feel like we ever went out. isn't that weird? oh well. i don't have my brush with me! ohhhh nooo. Fast Money rocks my worldddd. FOOBA!!! haha for once in my whole entire life i really wanna go see a scary movie. but i don't have anybuddy to hide behind! :( lol ohhh soy un perdedor. i'm a loser, baby- so why don't you kill me? Beck rocks hard. I feel like i'm gonna a-splode (credits to E-Van) cause i'm so energyrific! it's like almost time to go! i'm gonna try to post a picture i painted on here- how many colors are in it? eh? I love you alllllll!