it's my Nike! he was scared of the camera! he ran away right after i took this. he's a gooober 

I'm grover! take the quiz to figure out which sesame street character you are at quizfarm.com! go to quizfarm.com and search for 'which sesame street character are you?' fun times. 

i could be serious, but i'm just kiddin around...

okay so i've been bored 2nite and browsing xangas and i found this. it's probably like one of the most asked questions known to man. really. that and maybe like 'will you marry me?' or 'are you gonna eat that?' anyway here is a fun lil survery this person did and some answers that were new on me:

The glass is half full or half empty?:
Half full: 4
Half empty: 0
Glass has a hole in it: 1
Is there alcohol in it? Because if so, I'll have to mosey on by those options straight to "Totally empty, mutherf*cker!!! Now shut up and pour!": 1 (thanks again to Brent)

so i have no clue who this person is but i found them through ashley's xanga. (well dave bell's xanga, which i found through ashley's xanga.) did you know "xanga people" comment like 30 times more than "blogspot ppl?" they really do. check it out sometime. i want to take a pic to put on my profile. not like i don't have a thousand others. but "xanga ppl" have superly creative profile pictures. sorry i am very into "xanga ppl" 2nite for some reason?

well this weekend totally got messed up. but i am not mad one lil tiny bit at the person at fault... b/c it's not her fault, not really. she can't help it. and i loveeeeee her tons and tons and more anyway! (my sister... long story. not really public info!)

i wonder why people are so obsessed at seeing what other ppl have to say or think. or what other ppl do in their free time. really, why is that? and why do we feel compelled to write in such a public place? why not some place only we could see. i bet everyone's entries would be way different if they were the only person who was goin to read them in the future, eh? i know mine would.

but did you know there is a blog trend goin through? and kid if you don't have one YOU GOT TO GET ONE. haha if only you could read that the way it sounds in my head- you would laugh. i'm def. not one to blindly follow trends, but i like to pick and choose from the "in" stuff and make my own style mixing it with other stuff. not that that is what this blog is about. ohhh nooooo. my blog and i are old friends. the trend thing really applies to clothes the most. i don't know why i'm talkin about this?

so i'm offically on spring break. it doesn't mean that much to me b/c i'm just stayin in good ole cyn city. not really, i'll be in Mt. Olivet, but ya know. (omg dad went to a town in kansas that was like not even 1/5 the size of Mt. Olivet- it didn't even have an intersection! and you thought I lived in a 'bump'!) and i still have to go to school for play practice on wed. thurs. and fri. oh well i will actually have time to hang out with my friends! that's the first in like a month! i don't know how i did it. but i'm alive! i'm typing this right now. uhcha. haha

ooooo do this i want to see: (email them to me.)

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Did you talk to me the first time you saw me?
5. Have you ever made up an excuse to get away from/stop talking to/not have to hang out with me?
6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
7. Describe me in one word.
8. What was your first impression?
9. Do you still think that way about me now?
10. What reminds you of me?
11. If you could give me anything what would it be?
12. How well do you know me?
13. When's the last time you saw me?
14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
15. Are you going to put this in your blog and see what I say about you (do it)?

i think that survey is cool cause it's not the usual questions. i borrowed both of the previous things from Dave Bell's xanga. i'm tellin you- i was very bored. (as if you needed further proof) i'm gonna post a pic of Nike!

what does it take... to get a drink in this place?

well i'm home from school today, again. yesterday i could barely move, but today i'm just recovering. which means i'm fine, just a lil slow. but all this sitting at home has given me an enormous amount of energy to use. but i don't mind. another plus- i haven't been able to eat much and i've lost a few pounds. not that i won't gain it back, but i feel good right now. all skinny. i know you all are probably like wtf?! but i don't care. a pound over 120, for me, and i feel like a hoss. really. but changing topics! I watched Elf today! :) and i watched Cinderella yesterday! they make me smile. i love the lil mices in Cinderella, how cute are they?! really. and i like movies with happy endings. speaking of movies, tho... i was thinking- do they have cds full of soundtracks? like not singing-song soundtracks, but like the music in movies that is supposed to be supporting the action or the emotion. like the music in Gladiator- i think that's a good example. i freakin love that movie. i really wanna buy it. that and Chicago. haha very different movies, eh? oh well. i have very diverse taste i guess... i think i'm so ecclectic that nobody can figure me out. i mean even the PLAN test ppl didn't know what "region" to put me in for a career- they just highlighted the '?'. i don't think that's a bad thing, it's kinda fun. but it's confusing at the same time. back to the soundtrack music, tho. i would seriously listen to that kind of music all the time if i just had a cd of it. i mean, you can make up your own stories and words and stuff to fill the music. you just think about whatever you want and the music provides a nice background. see, a lot of the music i like to listen to demands to be listened to when i play it. it sucks me in. i just want some music with a life of it's own. you know i think i'm full of bullshit and i don't why i started talking about this! haha woooo. anyway. i just wanted to post a cheerie lil post and ramble on for a bit seein as how i have no one to talk to here. it was Leslie's bday sunday! i dunno if i've said that yet? she's 24 now! mom sent her flowers Saturday but she still hadn't gotten them by tuesday and mom called the ppl that were supposed to deliver them to her and bitched them out. it was very entertaining. dad's in Kansas with paul simpson. they're pickin up an old truck dad wants to turn into a rod. it's supposed to mine, i think. we're gonna put it in flat black primer with colorful wheels (i want hot pink but i doubt he'll agree to that). we're gettin a new puppy! if paul's wife will ever call us back! see, his son has 4 puppies- 2 chocolate labs and 2 black labs- that they're just giving away! and we wanna go "claim one" to get when dad gets back from Kansas... but his wife needs to call us back and tell us when we can do that! somebody better not take them! i'll be so disappointed! i loveee puppies. especially their lil puppy bellies. i'm gonna go play with Nike.

I'm sick today- time for camera experimentation! enjoy these weird pics and some others from St. Patty's Day! :)
 

i'm contained in the tv 

it's kind of like an out-of-body experience... if only i could look back at myself standing outside of the tv... 

is this picture totally awesome or what?  

the roses my 'rents got me before my GSA audition- how sweet! :) 

Covert had fun with my camera... be glad I deleted the other pictures! haha 

we're never sendin Kasey on an important misson again! geez. haha 

haha Billy- I got youuu! 

Kasey is representin' Harrison Co. Speech- what what! ... what boyfriend? 

Kayla is imagining the day she becomes a forensic scientist person. whatever they're called. 

tryin to thread a dang needle for Kasey. i don't know why i'm posting this picture. but my ring is bling-blinging, eh? haha 

Eric Baxter looks funny in this picture. 

I'm proud to be Irish. especially on St. Patty's day! :) 

i've got a hunger... twisting my stomach into knots.

2 AM and she calls me cause I'm still awake-
"Can you help me unravel my latest mistake?
I don't love him...
winter just wasn't my season."

Yeah we walk through the doors so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize
Hypocrites, you're all here for the very same reason.

Cause you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable
and life's like an hourglass glued to the table,
No one can find the rewind button girl
So just cradle your head in your hands.
And breathe, just breathe, ohh breathe, just breathe

May he turned 21 on the base of Fort Bliss
"Just a day" he said down to the flask in his fist
Ain't been sober since maybe October of last year
Here in town you can tell he's been down for while
But my God it's so beautiful when the boy smiles
Wanna hold him... maybe I'll just sing about it

Cause you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass glued to the table,
No one can find the rewind button boys
so cradle your head in your hands
And breathe, just breathe, ohh breath just breathe

There's a light at each end of this tunnel
You shout, cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
And these mistakes you've made
You'll just make them again, if you'll only try turnin' around

2 AM and I'm still awake writing this song
If i get it all down on paper it's no longer inside of me
Threatening the life it belongs to.
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary screamin' out aloud
And I know that you'll use them however you want to.

But you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass glued to the table,
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand...yeah breathe
Just breathe, oh oh breathe

Anna Nalick- Breathe

and i don't want to look much closer- 'cause i'm afraid to find out all this hope i had sent into the sky, by now had... crashed.

really the first 11 words of that sum it all up for me... that is me. read it again. fear has made me incapable of many things. and do you think that i enjoy that? the fact that i will never be able to maintain a serious relationship with another humanbeing, ever. and you think that i can help it. that these are my decisions. but it's my fears' dictation. i really have no say at all. no matter how much i fight it, i always end up hurting the ppl i care about the most. and in turn, tearing myself apart. do you think that that is a nice feeling? i wouldn't want to put anyone through that. and it is not a matter of being courageous and 'getting through it.' it will never work. that's why there are certain walls that will always remain standing, no matter how much i care about a person. atleast i know that. and now you do, too. i'm too deep for my own good- i think i might drown in myself one of these days.

i don't have time for this heinz!

howdy. well this weekend has been a hectic lil mother. friday like right afterschool i went to Murray, Ky. to audition for GSA. my audition was at 11:15 on saturday, and there was nooooo way you were gonna get me up early enough to leave saturday mornin. i think it went well, i did my best and it was fun. so if nothin else it was a good experience- but i'm really crossing my fingers! but there's always next year, eh? anyways we got to see Ruben! :) and on sat. nite we hung out with some of the GSA faculty (Rubie's friends) for "cocktails" (of course i drank coke, lol) and dinner and it was the funniest thing ever. on the way to dinner Ruben got a flat tire on his van so we all (6 of us) had to pile into the magnum. (dad and rube went back to fix the tire with AAA after dinner.) it's always interesting when adults talk bout their "wild adventures." but i'm so used to that cause of dad and rube, so what can i say? i was sworn to secrecy about what they said, so i can't say that! hehe anyways sunday mornin we left kinda early cause i had to be at play practice at 2. play practice was fun, we were there til 8, tho! and mom was workin on some stuff... so i didn't get home til too long ago. does that make sense? sorry if this is all pieced together and makes no sense, i'm like delerious i'm so tired. well i'll write a deeper one of these later cause i really want to but i gotta go eat before my belly explodes. oh no!

maybe, i didn't mean to treat you bad... but i did it anyway.

well i am posting! when was the last time i posted anyways? what do i need to tell ya... let's see.

well i've had 2 dance competitions in a row these past two weeks. we've done well. at DMB in Lex we had workshop classes, too and those were fun. i got a rug burn on my knee, tho. it was between classes and i was like kinda running to my bag and BAM i feel. i'm such an uncoordinated person i'm surprised i'm a dancer.

oh crap i have my GSA audition Saturday. (Governor's School for the Arts- it's a summer program for 3 weeks at Transy for kids who are interested in the arts) i'm applying to get into the dance program, specifically the modern dance program. my audition is just a 3 hour master-class with other ppl and a group interview so i shouldn't be so stressed.... but it's hard to make yourself stick out in a crowd in an appealing way in dance. i just gotta be prepared and i'm so not. i've been slacking off lately. i have no self-motivation skills it's pathetic. anyways wish me luck! i want in soooo bad. my bro went. in visual art. he's really good, tho.

last friday was my daddy's birthday and saturday i went with him to the KYANA swap meet (kentucky-indiana) in Louisville. it was fun. i had to wake up before 5, tho. but it seriously didn't bother me that bad. it's kind of empowering getting up so early. i liked it. and we went out to lunch with Cynthia and Max- my "aunt" and my 5 year old "cousin". we went to Lynn's Paradise Cafe- it's awesome! i don't remember ever goin there before, but they have a shop before you go into the restaurant, and i got this awesome ring- it's like glass or plastic or whatever and the back is painted light blue with pink squiggly lines, i love it! they have Awesome glasses, too. i really want to go shoppinggg. i always want so much more than i can have, tho.

Taylor (Amy's- my dance teacher- lil girl) was sooo cute at Sunday's competition (in Lville). she kept making a penguin noise and you would ask her a question and she would just "talk like a penguin" it was so cute. and she had the penguin walk down and everything. she used to be so shy around us but i'm glad she's not anymore, she's a fun lil kid.

We were in Regionals or something for basketball last week but we lost. what's new? haha we had a pep rally n stuff tho and we got out of class! so that's okayyy with me. what else has been goin on at school?..... oh! me n Ashley had been working on our dance for the play during 3rd and 4th block on Friday. it's so fun skipping class- we didn't get ANYTHING done, but oh well! and then yesterday we had to like speed-make-it-up. and then we didn't even do it that day! oh well. and i had to do my Red Rat dance in front of the faculty- ugh... very uncomfortable!

o oo yesterday in 2nd block (World Civ- Coach Graham) we were reading in our text books and i pointed out something stupid the book said to Kayla, and Graham was like girls, is there a problem? and i was like i'm just showing kayla how stupid this book is. and he was like well just come to me next time and i was like but it's not like that i was just showing her something and kayla was like 'she likes to share her findings with me... that's how we learn.' and he was like well you do that later- we're reading now. and i was like ohhh okay kayla, we'll learn later, we're reading now. it was great! i think he got mad but it was worth it. and we had just been talkin bout how we don't learn Anything in that class. ahhh fun times.

Beth and Jim just broke up this weekend. i know she doesn't care that much bout it. " but i want her to be happy! and i just feel so uncapable of cheering her up. i really don't think i'm good at that kind of thing. but i know exactly how the 2nd block situation could make her feel like shit, tho. 1st block, last semester. wanted to shoot myself every single day. ugh i don't want to think about it. so i hope that's not how it is for her!

Mrs. C is talkin bout somebody that named their kid Bam- what is the world coming to?

i think that's all i need to say. if i think of anything else i will post again!